Perhaps this is not the marriage he had envisioned, if nothing else for the fact it was necessitated out Wanyin's need and dependence. But it was certainly not something he had personal objections to, and seeing his husband, who is clearly in emotional pain that he has no way to let out, suffer so? Does not sit well with him at all. Whether... there will be love, Xichen cannot say and, given his father's history, he is not certain it should be, even if his heart aches at putting distance between them. But pain, he cannot but attempt to heal. It is the way he is. ]
Have I given you cause to know that I did not want the marriage?
[ He lets the question linger, before clarifying. ]
Because I can assure you, if I had not wanted it, it would not have happened. There would be other ways to ensure the help for your clan.
[ Xichen is aware that he is ... mild, and even sometimes easy to push into certain conclusions and decisions, when he is not certain of his way. But there ever have been limits to it, and this - committing his life to spend by someone else's side, as spouses - is one of them. ]
they be like that. not nearly as obvious as others, but take your breath away
[ Soft sound, and thoughtful.
Perhaps this is not the marriage he had envisioned, if nothing else for the fact it was necessitated out Wanyin's need and dependence. But it was certainly not something he had personal objections to, and seeing his husband, who is clearly in emotional pain that he has no way to let out, suffer so? Does not sit well with him at all. Whether... there will be love, Xichen cannot say and, given his father's history, he is not certain it should be, even if his heart aches at putting distance between them. But pain, he cannot but attempt to heal. It is the way he is. ]
Have I given you cause to know that I did not want the marriage?
[ He lets the question linger, before clarifying. ]
Because I can assure you, if I had not wanted it, it would not have happened. There would be other ways to ensure the help for your clan.
[ Xichen is aware that he is ... mild, and even sometimes easy to push into certain conclusions and decisions, when he is not certain of his way. But there ever have been limits to it, and this - committing his life to spend by someone else's side, as spouses - is one of them. ]