[ Xichen is. Blinking, slowly, at the outburst. The response doesn't add up, not quite. ]

Wanyin, that I've stopped myself from trying to find the one I would choose does not mean that I'd not be loved. Nor finding the one I do would mean that they would love me in return.

And whether or not you can cultivate will make no difference if I were to allow myself to look and find that he person is you, anyway.

[ slow, and careful , and inexorable. Chew on that, husband of his. ]