"I will not give up in finding an alternative," Xichen knows they are friends, that this level of friendship is precious and so recently earned. He feels selfish that he craves more, that he cannot fathom that a life where this man is not part of it.

"You must forgive my boldness, but I cannot allow something to happen to you if there is a chance I am able to prevent it." It is desperation speaking then, causing his voice to tremble.