[ Like a chicken squawking as Wei Wuxian joyfully tossed it around, no. He wouldn't want to embarrass Jiang Cheng or make him want to flee. ]
A-Cheng. [ It's only murmured to as not to be rude, soft enough to clearly taste it on his tongue. His lashes flutter on his cheeks as he looks down, a sadder smile canting on his lips. ] I was A-Huan, for a time.
[ He watches - the softness, the flutter, the way he can almost see Xichen’s heart wobble and ache, and he recognises the pain. To be betrayed by someone you loved dearly is a terrible curse indeed. He understands that.
Shaking his head, he tries not to fall into that embarrassment again. ]
[ The way he glances up without moving, looking at him intently. Jiang Cheng was right, they didn't need alcohol; this exchange feels exactly the same as being light-headed. ]
[ He feels drunk. It’s been a while since he let himself imbibe like that, but surely this is similar to that feeling. He also feels a little queasy, if only because he’s nervous. ]
[ He ought to take pity on him, be kinder. It's been a long time since he had this kind of connection with someone, playful and light with a thread of deeply-rooted interest at the core. ]
[ Jiang Cheng doesn’t know much about this sort of thing - preferences in friendships, the sudden surge of nervous excitement, not being at all sure what to do with his hands. It feels like he’s crossing a line somehow, and he’s not sure where that’s going to take him.
It’s never been this easy before.
Bowing his head a little, suddenly shy, he speaks. ]
[ After a moment's pause for thought, he gathers up his robes and slides around the table to sit beside him instead, rearranging the drinks so that they don't have a block of wood and ceramics between them. His knee bumps Jiang Cheng's and he sets about pouring the tea. With his gaze lowered, holding back a sleeve to set a cup before him, he gently asks, ]
Do you want me to call you a-Cheng? It's alright if not.
[ Wanyin is nice, he wouldn't mind. Its entirely, as Jiang Cheng said, about preferences. ]
Fine. Then when we are together I will call you that.
[ It feels like a huge step for someone like Jiang Cheng, who so rarely lets people close anymore, who avoids intimacy and tenderness for fear of it burning him. He has to shake his head to focus, eyes widening as Xichen moves closer, their knees touching and… Suddenly it is far more intimate.
Suddenly he’s not sure how to form words, staring at their legs as if it is a foreign tome. ]
You can use that. You may call me a-Cheng if you’d like it.
[ The part of him that has been secluded for so long feels miniscule now, he almost can't remember why he wanted to hide so much when he could feel this fond for someone other than his family again. Although, technically, he supposes they are. ]
How often I want you to want to hear me saying your name?
[ Don't come to Gusu where word-games and puzzles are the height of entertainment. ]
[ Jiang Cheng has spent so long keeping himself separate from people that being any kind of close is a new realm of intimacy. He feels himself open his mouth to speak and then close it swiftly, suddenly unsure of what to do or say.
He doesn’t think he can misstep, but he worries all the same. ]
The tea makes me honest. I’ll hear it often, you just have to say it. It’s a name, and it sounds good when you say it.
[ He wonders if he is flirting to make himself feel better, then dismisses the thought. It wouldn't have worked with anyone else, he's sure, and has everything to do with how charmingly transparent Jiang Cheng is. ]
Will you really be content to sit with me tomorrow in the library?
[ He’s not trying - it’s an attempt to be honest, to share something of himself with someone he trusts. The fact that he wants to attempt a flirt (attempt the impossible some might say) is novel to him. ]
Sizhui and Jingyi like Jin Ling very much, I would like to bring them with me when I visit Lotus Pier. They work very hard and could benefit from reinforcing their friendships with others before they truly leave behind childhood.
[ It will hopefully prevent anything disastrous happening when Xichen and his peers are gone, if good relationships can be truly fostered now. ]
I haven't felt so awake in a long time. [ He is, however, conscious of how much tea a body can take. ] Come, let's take a walk in the gardens. It will make us appreciate the awaiting warmth of our beds all the more.
[ Leaving behind their swords — Sandu beside Jiang Cheng's seat, Shuoyue on a stand which she hasn't left in days — Xichen leads them out into the twilight that has fallen over the peaceful quiet of Cloud Recesses. Lanterns have already been lit here and there, sparse but enough to keep the worst shadows away, and the gardens he takes them to have an understated beauty around ponds and little streams. Obediently, all the students are abed (or at least indoors).
Jiang Cheng wears the moonlight well, prompting Xichen to smile back at him as they climb a little bridge. ]
You wanted to talk about things and I have, for my part. It's your turn, I think.
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[ Like a chicken squawking as Wei Wuxian joyfully tossed it around, no. He wouldn't want to embarrass Jiang Cheng or make him want to flee. ]
A-Cheng. [ It's only murmured to as not to be rude, soft enough to clearly taste it on his tongue. His lashes flutter on his cheeks as he looks down, a sadder smile canting on his lips. ] I was A-Huan, for a time.
[ No more, though. ]
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[ He watches - the softness, the flutter, the way he can almost see Xichen’s heart wobble and ache, and he recognises the pain. To be betrayed by someone you loved dearly is a terrible curse indeed. He understands that.
Shaking his head, he tries not to fall into that embarrassment again. ]
You could be a-Huan again.
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To you?
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Perhaps. If it is the preference we agree on.
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[ He ought to take pity on him, be kinder. It's been a long time since he had this kind of connection with someone, playful and light with a thread of deeply-rooted interest at the core. ]
Say my name, in that case.
[ While Xichen is watching him steadily. ]
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It’s never been this easy before.
Bowing his head a little, suddenly shy, he speaks. ]
Lan Huan. A-Huan, is that it?
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[ After a moment's pause for thought, he gathers up his robes and slides around the table to sit beside him instead, rearranging the drinks so that they don't have a block of wood and ceramics between them. His knee bumps Jiang Cheng's and he sets about pouring the tea. With his gaze lowered, holding back a sleeve to set a cup before him, he gently asks, ]
Do you want me to call you a-Cheng? It's alright if not.
[ Wanyin is nice, he wouldn't mind. Its entirely, as Jiang Cheng said, about preferences. ]
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[ It feels like a huge step for someone like Jiang Cheng, who so rarely lets people close anymore, who avoids intimacy and tenderness for fear of it burning him. He has to shake his head to focus, eyes widening as Xichen moves closer, their knees touching and… Suddenly it is far more intimate.
Suddenly he’s not sure how to form words, staring at their legs as if it is a foreign tome. ]
You can use that. You may call me a-Cheng if you’d like it.
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In private, mm. Jiang-zongzhu sounds so far away from me now, when I say it.
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[ Considering he’s only just got an agreement to visit. ]
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That depends on how often you want to hear me saying your name.
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As often as you want.
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How often I want you to want to hear me saying your name?
[ Don't come to Gusu where word-games and puzzles are the height of entertainment. ]
The tea is making you coy, a-Cheng.
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He doesn’t think he can misstep, but he worries all the same. ]
The tea makes me honest. I’ll hear it often, you just have to say it. It’s a name, and it sounds good when you say it.
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Will you really be content to sit with me tomorrow in the library?
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Why wouldn’t I be? It will be nice to have quiet.
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[ It's a Sect Leader team-up holiday tomorrow. ]
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[ This is blissful in comparison, despite his love for his nephew. ]
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[ It will hopefully prevent anything disastrous happening when Xichen and his peers are gone, if good relationships can be truly fostered now. ]
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[ It might help guide him to be a little less stern than his uncle is. ]
I’ll make sure all the arrangements are made.
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[ The tolling of the 9pm bell has him glancing away, then back. ]
If you are tired from your journey ...
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[ Slowly, he pushes himself to his feet - he glances at Sandu, hesitating for a moment before he nods his head and motions to the door. ]
Lead the way, please.
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Jiang Cheng wears the moonlight well, prompting Xichen to smile back at him as they climb a little bridge. ]
You wanted to talk about things and I have, for my part. It's your turn, I think.
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