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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He sighs under his breath, feeling oddly sad for his friend. Intensely so, even, much as he keeps a lid on that emotion and channels his determination to rouse up some hope in Jiang Cheng into the pink of his own ears. ]

You have a good voice, it is not to be merely tolerated. I have sat in silence for near days, [ also sad but focus on his point, ] and now I am noticing how much I like the light of the lamps when they are lit and the taste of food again, because Jiang-zongzhu is here talking with me.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 09:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He is flattered, but! ]

I would not like any partner chosen for you who did not welcome the sound of your voice.

[ He is going to be honest and gripe about that, softly so as he forces himself to sip his tea and be humbled by the fact it's none of his business. It is as much sternness as he has shown so far, though it is not truly angry and more frustrated. ]

You could come to Cloud Recesses and talk all day long here in the library, while I mend books.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Go to Yunmeng? The very idea makes him smile, genuinely charmed by the idea, but that same smile slowly wilts as he stares at his tea. ]

I cannot leave Gusu.

[ He cannot leave the Hanshi often, let alone Cloud Recesses. ]
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ After a pause where he collects what bravery he has left, he looks up fondly and nods. If he looks confident, no one will question him. ]

I am only needed to be Sect Leader. I can do that from here.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I fail to see how.

[ If he doesn't have any more connections beyond his family, he can't fail them again. If he stays in Gusu and isolates, no one will hurt him again. If ... ]
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He doesn't rise to meet the same level of anger, doesn't take offense at the harsh words. Jiang Cheng cares when he is like this, Xichen has seen the way he reacts with Wei Wuxian; it is nice to know he feels strongly about this too, small and unimportant though the matter of Xichen's seclusion is. ]

I can be all those things in Gusu.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I cannot leave Gusu.

[ The ceramic of his teacup taps the table lightly where he sets it down, drawing his hands into his sleeves when reiterating. Clarifying, quietly. ]

It is not that I don't wish to.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Xichen frowns, sitting straighter. He was bored and lonely, but he also liked the idea of seeing Jiang Cheng so much. Should he not have invited him? ]

That was not what ...
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Words stick in his throat as irrational panic leaps up, stifling them. He swallows, shaking his head at the accusations, and feels an uncomfortable tightness in his chest. ]

You do not have to see me even if you still wish to stay, the invitation stands. It is not necessary to ...

If I have been selfish for wanting to see Jiang-zongzhu again, I apologise.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Causing it?

[ The misery in his chest that binds his organs to one place and won't let him leave, vibrating them in panic when he considers it? ]

When did it end?
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-24 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Arguably, I have suffered the least of anyone. I have my family, my home was rebuilt, and I have good friends to tell me when I am being unreasonable.

[ The latter statement comes with a wry, small smile. A-Yao may as well have take a scythe and gutted Xichen, after using and manipulating him for years, taking him for a fool. Making him care. Still, Jiang Cheng doesn't think him a totally useless fool incapable of seeing through lies and protecting his loved ones (which he was). ]

Even a used rag can still clean a small spot, if it doesn't reach too far.
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[personal profile] lanclan 2023-04-25 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
Mn. [ The similarities between brothers is more apparent the quieter Xichen gets, though he still wears a soft smile. ] It is. I know it is. My good friend Jiang-zongzhu speaks the truth, as I hope he always will.

But I still ...

[ His lips part as he tries to explain, eyes lowering to where his fingers have tightened in the sleeves of his robes to consciously relax them. With a sigh, Xichen looks askance to a window decorated in cranes, and he does long to be better again. Outside these walls, safe though they are because he can control everything within them. ]

I would like to see Lotus Pier in the summer very much.

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